Saturday, February 11, 2012

Matag gutlo kahigayonan sa paglambo

Sa dihang gipangutana ang usa ka nuebentay singko anyos nga lalaki ug naila nga usa ka bantugang mamamana kung nganu sa iya lang gihapong pangedaron, mogahin gihapon cyag unom ka oras matag adlaw aron sa pagbansay. Ang maong tigulang igo lang mitubag: "Nagbansay ko tungod kay akong nakita nga mulambo pa gyud ko." Ang matag gutlo sa atong kinabuhi maoy mga kahigayonan sa paghimo og ginagmay apan makanunayong kalambuan. Sama sa atong kinabuhing Espirituhanon, ang Dios wala magpaabot nga mohimo kita og dili kasarangang mga kalamposan nga pagaubanan og mga walay kinutobang pag-angal. Hinunoa, gitawag kita nga muhimo og mga yanong mga buhat nga dunay dili kasarangang paghigugma. Mao nga ang matag gutlo kahigayonan gyud sa paglambo.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Obesity Prevention & Awareness (www.nhlbi.nih.gov)

Obesity means having too much body fat.

It is different from being slightly overweight, which means weighing way too much.

The weight may come from muscle, bone, fat and/or body water.

Both terms mean that a person's weight is greater that what's considered healthy for his or her height.

A person is considered obese when his or her weight is 20 percent or more above normal weight.

Obesity occurs over time when one eats more calories than the body uses.

The balance between calories-in and calories-out differs for each person.

Factors that might tip the balance include your genetic makeup, overeating, eating high-fat foods and not being physically active.

Being obese increases your risk of:

.Diabetes
.Stroke
.Arthritis
.and some Cancers
.Heart disease
.Sleep apnea
.Gallstone


If you are obese,, losing even five to ten percent of your weight can delay or prevent some of these diseases.

Healthy lifestyle

To lose weight, you must eat food with fewer calories and increase your physical activity to burn more calories.

They key to losing and keeping weight off is to set realistic weight loss goals.

The changes you make to your eating and exercise habits will need to last throughout your life.

A healthy diet example

. Fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and fat-free or low-fat dairy products
. Lean meats, poultry, fish, beans, eggs, and nuts
. Low in saturated fats, trans fats, cholesterol, salt, and added sugar

Focus on portion size

Watch the size of portion in fast food and other restaurants.

A simple exercise tip

Experts recommend at least 30 minutes of moderate aerobic activity (such as a brisk walk) at least five days a week.

You don't have to exercise for 30 minutes at a time; ten minutes three times a day is equally effective.

In fact, any exercise from taking the stairs to cleaning the house or working in the garden is beneficial.

You should also include muscle-strengthening activities such as weight-lifting or working with resistance bands at least two days a week.

Workplace Wellness: Take responsibility for your own heart health

10 simple steps on how you can live a healthy life


1.Healthy food intake - Eat at least five servings of fruit and vegetables a day and avoid saturated fat. Beware of processed foods. They often contain high levels of salt.

2.Get Active - Even 30 minutes of activity can assist in the prevention of heart attacks and strokes and your work will benefit too.

3.Say no to tobacco - Your risk of coronary heart disease will be halved within a year and will return to a normal level over time.

4.Maintain a healthy weight - Weight loss and less salt intake leads to lower blood pressure. High blood pressure is the number one risk factor for stroke and a major factor for approximately half of all heart disease.

5.Know your numbers - Visit a healthcare professional who can measure your blood pressure, cholesterol and glucose levels, together with waist-to-hip ratio and body mass index (bmi). Once you know your overall risk, you can develop a specific plan of action to improve your heart health.

6.Limit your alcohol intake - Restrict the amount of alcoholic drinks you consume. Excessive alcohol intake can cause your blood pressure to rise and your weight to increase.

Ideas on how you can make your workplace healthier are listed in numbers 7 to 10 as follows:

7.Insist on a smoke-free environment - Demand a tobacco ban and ensure your workplace is 100 percent smoke-free. Support the adoption of smoking-cessation services and encourage your employer to provide help to those wanting to quit tobacco.

8.Bring exercise to your workplace - Include physical activity in your working schedule - cycle to work whenever possible, take the stairs, exercise or go for a walk during your lunch breaks, and encourage others to do so too.

9.Choose healthy food options - Ask for healthy food at you work canteen, or find nearby cafes or restaurants that serve healthy meals.

10.Encourage stress-free moments - while stress has not been shown to be a direct risk factor for heart disease and stroke, it is related to smoking, excessive drinking and unhealthy eating, which are risk factors for heart disease.

.Take time for lunch away from your workplace to get some fresh air
.Take regular breaks during the day and do stretching exercising for five minutes twice a day

A Wonderful Message by George Carlin

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees, but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicines, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life and life to years
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a neighbor.

We conquered outer space, but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less
We've learned to rush, but not to wait
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, sleep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of too incomes but more divorce, fancier houses but broken homes
These are the days of of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is the time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

Remember, spend time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember to say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember to say "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all, mean it.
A kiss and an embrace will mend hurts when it comes from deep inside you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take your breath away.

Prayer of a Wife

Dear Lord,
Grant me the grace to be more patient.
When children are misbehaving and food is not eaten.
When the budget is short and all bills are always rising.
When my husband is busy and he tends to forget our anniversary.
When laundries are filled piled up and I have no time for myself.
When household chores tend to be routinary and I feel I am a robot.

I don't ask you Lord, that I may be appreciated
I don't work that I may be praised
Nor do I complain or seek comfort.
What I ask of you is to grant me the grace to be more persevering. Because I will do these things again just to give the best to my children.
Let all these household duties be the expressions of my all-encompassing concern for them.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Memo from God

To : You
Date : Today
From : GOD - The Boss!
Subject : Yourself
Reference: Life

This is God. Today I will be handling all of your problems for you. I do not need your help. So have a nice day. I love you....

GOD

P.S.

and, remember...
If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it yourself!! Kindly put it in the SFGT (Something for God to do) box. I will get to it in my time. All situation will be resolve, but in my time, not yours.

P.S.S.

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.

If you find yourself stuck in traffic, don't despair. there are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work, think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad, think of the person who has never known what it's like to love in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend, think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance, think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror, think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities, remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!

Should you decide to send this to a friend, thank you, you may have touched their life in ways you will never know!

Now, you have a nice day, God.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Secrets To Raising A Reader

Love for books doesn't always happen at first sight. This is why it's very important for parents to get their kids interested in reading as early as possible. In his book Raising a Reader, author Paul Kropp says children need their parent's help to become a reader for life. "Without you, your child is unlikely to develop the attitudes that make reading easy and fun," Kropp stresses. Mastering the skill isn't your only reward. "Over the years, children will have good memories to treasure," a US Department of Education research says. "Parents are in a unique position to help children enjoy reading and see the value of it."

But finding the time for parent-child reading is equally crucial. Doing so, after all, seems like a tough task for parents who face the demands of career and family life. But experts say it can be done-and on a daily basis no less. These four tips will help you get going:

The earlier you start the better. Even infants can benefit from early exposure to reading. At just a few months, babies can recognize pictures, listen to voices, and point to objects. As your babies get older, they will eventually get accustomed to the rhythm and melody of language. Once your kids reach this level of awareness, learning how to read will be a picnic.

Make reading with your kids a daily habit. Motivate your kids and have them associate reading to fun. Great, meaningful stories are the best tools to advertise reading. Ma. Teresa Cancio Suplico's Olivia, the Octopus Princess* , for example, isn't only a colorful, imaginative children's story book, it also teaches values like true courage and friendship. Ideally, 15-30 minutes of reading is enough. "Your commitment should be for everyday so that the books you read will have some continuity," explains Kropp. "Reading time should become a habit for you, something that is expected by your child, an activity you both can anticipate with pleasure. Cuddling, talking, joking, asking and answering questions will make your reading time doubly enjoyable and enriching."

Regularly buy books for your child and yourself. There's something affirming about having books of one's own. Kropp says "most readers come from families with a wide assortment of books, magazines and newspapers around the house." a "print-rich" environment, he adds, highlights one true fact: Books are worth-reading. Owning books also leads to repetitive reading which promotes your kids reading skills. If money is a consideration, try to find alternative sources for good books. Letting your child choose which book to buy empowers him. Be supportive as much as you can.

Don't let television interfere with your kids' reading sked. Various studies say too much television stunts the intellectual development of children. Monitor your kids' viewing habits daily. Let your kids know that you've set up rules on TV watching so the gains they get from their regular reading time will not be wasted. "You have to stand up in the midst of all that [your kids' insistence to watch TV] and say no," notes Kropp. "No, the TV won't be on after 9:30pm. No, there is more to life than another Schwarzenegger movie. By doing that, you'll make sure there's time for reading in your child's life."

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Magpa Guwapa Ta...

Ang beauty ug ang happy life... Natural lang nga dunay mga problema sa kinabuhi. Wa tawo nga malibre ani. Pero ang importante, kamao kang mudala sa mga kaguol sa kinabuhi. Matud sa mga eksperto dunay mga paagi para maangkon ug happy life para di maapektuhan ang beauty ug kalawasan. Sunda ning mga tips:

1. Paglakaw-lakaw for 20-30mins ka minuto kada adlaw.
2. Duwa sa imong mga paboritong games.
3. Basa og maayong libro.
4. Katog og 8 hours kada adlaw.
5. Pag-gahin og panahon para mo praktis og meditation, yoga og pag-ampo.
6. Inom og daghang tubig.
7. Paninguha nga makapakatawa ka og at least duha ka tawo kada adlaw.
8. Ayaw usiki imong panahon sa pag-imbento ug paminaw sa tsismis.
9. Kalimti ang mga isyu sa kagahapon.
10. Itagana imong energy sa mga positibong buhat.
11. Paninguha nga mo smile ug mukatawa kanunay.
12. Mubo kaau ang kinabuhi para usikan lang sa paglagot sa usa ka tawo.
13. Ayaw ikumpara imung kinabuhi sa uban, wa ka masayod kung unsa sad ang ilang mga problema.
14. Pasayloa ang mga nakasala nimo.
15. Bisan dunay problema, bangon, pag.ilis ug buhata ang angay nimong buhaton.
16. Usik sa panahon ang pagsuya-suya.
17. Huna-hunaa kanunay nga "the best is yet to come."
18. Pasalamat sa Ginoo ig mata nimu kada adlaw.
19. Ayaw kalimti ang imong family, friends og mga paryente. Sila ang mo suporta nimu kung duna kay problema.
20. Matag adlaw, buhat og maau para sa uban.

Nothing can bring you peace except yourself....

"Nothing can bring you peace except yourself". This statement of Ralph Waldo Emerson reminds me of someone who is always at odss with everyone; either a family member, a friend or a neighbor. It seems that she is bitter towards the world and has hatred on every one. Then I realized that because of her marital problem, her husband left her for another woman, she has that negative emotional turmoil within her.

I feel sorry for her because she is not at peace with herself, especially towards the world. I feel that having this kind of demons within one's self makes one unhappy and miserable in life. I pity her because she does not realize that there are a lot of things in this world that she can be happy about and be thankful for, despite of the challenges that are thrown her away.

For me, there's nothing like having a peace within one's self. One can never truly enjoy the joys and beauty of life when one is robbed of inner peace. After all, we only pass this world but only once; so why deprived ourselves of that one treasure on earth? As Marcus Aurelius said, "He who lives in harmony within himself, lives in harmony with the universe".

Writer Henrick Edberg believes that inner peace is not that elusive. To attain inner peace, Edberg suggests the following ways.

SET LIMITS. If your life is filled with stuff you may need to set some limits, you have to stop doing some things which are not important to you.

DON'T MAKE MOUTAINS OUT OF MOLE HILLS
. This can create unnecessary stress. When facing what looks like a mountain or big deal, ask yourself this question "Does someone on this planet has a worse problem than me? Wil this matter after 5 years?"

ACCEPT. Acceptance of others, like their looks, their beliefs, their behavior, their character; instead of harboring anger and resentment in your heart, can bring you inner peace and tranquility.

FORGIVE
. Inner peace can be reached when we practice forgiveness. Forgiveness is letting go of the past. By accepting what it is; much easier to let go of things and to forgive of what had happened.

Forgiveness is important because as long as you don't forgive someone you are still linked to that person. You are always be bothered thinking on how that person has hurt you. The emotional link between the two of you is strong and inflict much suffering in you. When you forgive you do not only release the other person, but you also set yourself free.

DO WHAT YOU ENJOY
. If you're happy of what you are doing, you'll like yourself and you'll attain inner peace. When you enjoy what you do, inner peace simultaneously follow. Having inner peace leads you in alignment to the outer world, more success in life is in the offing.

BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR INNER PEACE
. Never be in a hurry; do everything quietly and calmly in spririt. Do not lose your inner peace for anything whatsoever, even if your whole world seems upset. Live in the present moment. Let not negative thinking about the future bothers you. It's one of the greatest culprits that can rob you of your inner peace.

Monday, January 31, 2011

A sad story with A Happy Ending

Why do wives hang on to their husbands even when they have caught them fooling around? Is it because of pride? Or they may still be in love, or are clinging to the hope that things would eventually work out? We had a conversation with such a woman, and her tale is as touching as it is remarkable. It is a story of courage and conviction. And the best part is she had the last laugh. We shall call her Tessie.

You knew that your husband was fooling around. Why didn't you leave him?
Because I loved him.

Were you not hurt? Are you a "dakilang martir'?
I was hurt but I am not a martyr. It bothered me but it did not affect me. There were also the children that I had to consider. This is not an excuse for being a martyr as some feminists might accuse me of. When I said my marriage vows, I had two responsibilities; one was to my husband, and the other was to the children we planned to have. I didn't want my children to come from or grow up in a broken home.

Were you not jealous of the other woman?
Woman? There were women, not just one woman!

So, were you hurt more because there were many of them? Or is the pain the same whether one or many?
The pain is only in the beginning. It did hurt a lot. If not, it meant then that I was not in love with him. But as time went by, it didn't cause me any pain anymore.

Why? Did you finally fall out of love with him?
I still love him but I was not anymore in love with him. We still lived together but he started to drift away from me emotionally. He had his own other life and I had mine. I guess the pain was not that harsh because I knew that he didn't love all the other women. He may have fallen out of love with me but he didn't fall in love with any of the others. (sighs) Yes, there was pain at the start because I suspected he was in love with another woman. But as time went by, I realized that there were many women but he was not in love (with them). (But) he was still a good father to our children. God knows how I tried to make our marriage also work. Then the children grew up. So, I started to have my own life not because he was not there by me emotionally but because my children had their own lives. They were married and I became a grandmother. I had my first grandchild. I then thought that now, I could start living my own life. I found happiness in other things in life.

You never feared that hew would leave you one day?
No, because he did have a pattern of having one woman after another. I also knew that he was having an affair with several women simultaneously. It was just sex for him.

Didn't that hurt you?
It's all a matter of attitude. For me, his women were prostitutes. I don't mean prostitutes, like street walkers. They were decent women: one was his secretary, another was a good friend of mine, and so on. They were educated women but for me they were like prostitutes as in rendering him sexual services that he constantly needed. I guess they all hoped to get paid back with his love but it never happened.

But didn't the mere fact that he was having sex with the other women bother you at all?
No. His women came and went. We had our children and that was my happiness. I am the kind of woman who had sex to procreate and not to satisfy my animal instincts. My children gave me more satisfaction than the I act I had to go through to create them. Please don't misunderstand me, too. I am not the religious type. I just knew my priorities. I could have given him the sex he needed but it was obvious at a certain point our marriage that he needed something new. For him, I was like a broken-down car and he needed new and faster cars.

You never found him to be extra baggage? You are wealthy and so is your husband. You could have left him.
The straw that broke the camel's back was when he told me I could have my own extramarital affairs.

Yeepeee! Isn't that great! You could also eat your cake now, too!
No. This was when I finally put my foot down.

Why? He was being honest and fair.
Sex was never my priority so I never thought of getting even with him my having affairs. He may not have loved me anymore, which was fine. For me but when he told me to have sex with other men, that was the end of the line. I didn't want to be like him. He did things to me that would have made other women dump their husbands from the very beginning. But I still had respect for him as the father of our children, not as a husband, and that was my choice. But when he even entertained the slightest thought that I should have sex with other men, he had no respect for me anymore because it was his choice, not mine. I was a happy woman because everything I did was of my choice. I was not insulted because he entertained this thought, but I was annoyed he didn't realize that everything I did was of my choice. I finally asked him to leave the house.

What happened then? Did he remarry?
I set him up in one of our houses. He still had one woman after another. But we were finally physically separated.

Were you happier? What happened?
He had a stroke, got semi-paralyzed and I took him back to take care of him again.

Huh?
I know what you're thinking of that I still loved him. Yes, I did love him but just like the love I have for my children. Nothing sexual. Maybe I should have been a caregiver? (laughter) After several months, I realized that he was still unhappy so I told him to move back to his place again and we both agreed. I knew he was happier there. No big deal on my part. We were both happy.

And then?
He then had a heart attack and died. I was still close to his family. His parents passed away a few years after. I have never remarried and I still enjoy the life I have.

Do you consider yourself lucky that he never remarried despite the kind of arrangement you had?

I was a very happy person despite his behavior. I understood him and myself very well.

Oh I know where you're coming from, but...

You know what the biggest surprise was? (After they died) my parents-in-law did not leave anything even for our children. We were not in their will. It was not like I expected something from them. We did not need it and neither did my children. It was all given to my brothers- and sisters-in-law who gave me the equal and fair share of my husband. That made me cry. I guess my parents-in-law thought that I would remarry one day but I haven't and I don't intend to. I have always been a happy woman and still am a very happy woman.

Glad to hear that. I know of many women who think they are nothing without a man.
Well, I am not (like) anyone of them. Before I married and when I was married and even after my husband died I always counted my blessings, and not my blessings with a man or the blessings a man gave me. Those where never counted scores in my life.

Freedom - at what cost?

Let me tell you a story: The owner of two small birds left the door of the cage open after feeding them. One of them flew out like a bullet to seek freedom. The bird hit the opposite wall and died instantly. The bird that stayed behind had another partner to share its captivity for the rest of its life.

Sometimes, freedom is not a good proposition. It comes at a very high price. It spells the same thing, whether it is animals or humans.

I had the privilege of meeting a young girl who shared a secret with me. She had a very domineering father. He considered it a curse to have four daughters. He blamed his wife for it. So he locked them up in the house most of their lives. When he died, his family actually celebrated the occasion. Freedom at last after years of oppression as the cage door flew open! The old man was wealthy and the family suddenly had access to his hidden cash.

Three months later, the first disaster struck the family. The second daughter, after getting her driving license, bought a new car from her inheritance. Just like the little bird, shew flew over the bridge after losing control of her car.

Weeks later, the third daughter died of pneumonia after a visit to East Africa. Then the first daughter got a divorce, and a year later, the mother died after a short illness. In less than two years, there was a complete family, though locked up but they had each other. Perhaps the man was a monster. Her two surviving daughters would never know. I refrained from asking the question that I was dying to know the answer to - did she blame her father? Due to the sensitivity involved, I thought I had better not. All she wanted was a sympathetic ear. That was five years ago. She and her sister have rebuilt their lives and moved on. You might say that I am justifying men who deprive their family of basic needs. I am not. I have only one daughter, and she gets away with murder when I am around. She would probably grow up to think it is her privilege to mess around. She might even blame me for it when I am gone.

There are unseen cages everywhere. They are not erected by steel bars, but by threats, aggression or other tyrannical methods. They all mean the same thing. But the worst prisons are built by walls of emotion. Almost every other marriage we know is being held at ransom by emotional blackmail. Either the husband does not get to do things he liked as a bachelor or the wife stops seeing her old friends.

The first person who coined the phrase 'free as a bird' must have been a very miserable creature. He gave so much of importance to the word that he lost his bearings in life. The truth is, all of us bet on the fast horse. But it is the slow horse that burns the candle of energy longer. Freedom usually means running as fast as our legs can take us, perhaps never reaching our destination.

Sometimes, staying behind does not mean being locked up. The catch is that it takes wisdom to know the difference between the two. If you are not sure, just bide your time and wait a little longer. Patience never fails anyone. The saints from all religions preached it. But who listens to Godly words these days anyway?

Friday, January 14, 2011

My 2011 plans, resolutions, wishes, prayers, hopes and dreams!

KUNG MADAUN KOG WORK END OF JANUARY MAO NI AKONG PLANS

get serious if ever naa nako work, work and i shud work hard, trust d Lord and trust yourself
be resourceful, time management and find to relax

take civil service exam if ever dili ka pasar this time kinahanglan pasaron naa si glenn mutudlo or magreview

after 6months kung makapasar maghiring hiring og item sa cebu city hall or capitol unya concentrate sa work nga makakat.on

kung makawork nako mu vacay ko sa manila ig april sa pasko sa kasakit puhon nya puhon sa manila ko magchristmas or new yr...




KUNG DILI KO MADAUN WORK SA GOVT. SA JANUARY MAO NI AKONG PLAN

kung wla pa balita til january 15 ky start nako concentrate plano og ngita work

aply ko starting end of january til march huwat ko if makawork ko

kung makawork ko ky concentrate jud sa work, nya try take civil service sa april nya kung makapasar which is ang result sa sept. try apply sa cebu. govt.




KUNG DILI PAJUDKO KA WORK UG KUNG ADTO KO SA MANILA KAY

take didto online civil service exam

apply2x ko sa manila ginagmay til puhon makasakay si glenn

uli dri if makasakay na si glenn try apply sa call center or govt. adto cebu stay if ever wla pako baby mag ladies dorm...

manglibre sa akng b.day sa ogis

take a summer vacation bohol, boracay or palawan, kanang naa na si glenn

spend time with glenn and his friends kung muoli na cya


skuyla voice lesson or b.a

palit ko sony camera/dlsr or cel

palimypyo sa ngipon, papasta, pa breeze, pa rebond,

exercise and eat right ayaw pgdiet kaon sa sakto og kanang less sugar og parat og aslum

papeles, marriage contract

apelyido sss og i.d

nso marriage

ad2 nla myra og laila

read sa books


RESOLUTION:

To always look good no matter what the situation is, if anything bothers don't mind, divert your thinking
into acting DO SOMETHING valuable or important not only to divert your attention but to inhance your personality skills talents and intellegence.

TIME MANAGEMENT AND ORGANIZATION

EATING HABIT - exercise and eat right no diet just eat right!

DOING SOMETHING IMPORTANT DILI MAG SLACK OR BUM

to give time to family and friends! they are the ones who's always there for you.

dili manglibak sa uban pasagda.i if naa gusto i istorya storya nga naay sense og naay unod storya og goodthings and plans.

to give time to friends dili na magtapol or magkinuripot bisan once lang

do ur own thing, concentrate og dili magmind sa uban divert your attention into doing something



Hopes, Wishes and Prayers for 2011

Good health nako sa akong husband og sa among mga pamilya
Protection sa matag.usa
Love, Peace and understanding
Guidance and Wisdom
Forgiveness...

2010 Memories....

2010 give me, my husband and each of our family a hope. God is so Good that despite everything He never leave us. This is the year wherein God gave me and my husband many reasons to start anew. God blessed us so many things and grant each of our desires, not to mention His constant Love, peace, understanding, another year to live, good health, guidance, wisdom and also He provided and fulfilled my husband's desire (Glenn) to work abroad. He answered our prayer that everything went smoothly in my husbands application despite of the "just-a-little" problem about his health but at least na ok man cya naa may option og gi-grantan man cya. He continue to bless our relationship with much love and more understanding. Another thing is... my husband allowed me to stay here in Danao, I've got a lot of "Me" time and being able to know myself more is a blessing, I get to have time with my family, Glenn gave me laptop, what else could be next? hmmm thinking! hehe, and lastly God shower me with His mercy I hope this one is His another blessing of giving "me" specially and my husband another chance to fully start a new this is just another step, Lord thy will be done ikaw na bahala ani Lord sa akong work opportunity, I'm praying that If you'll grant me this, all I need is your guidance wisdom peace good health and strength but kung unsa man gani Lord ang outcome ikaw na bahala sa akoa, Amen... Usa pud diay Lord sa akng ipagpasalamat ky nakig ok na akng mga igsuon nako Lord kabalo ko Lord dili sayon e-deal each one of them ky naa sa genes namu ang mga batasan pero Lord ako lang jud ampo nga guidance lang jud og wisdom og peace og understanding ang ihatag nimu nako Lord to deal with them... bsta Lord salamat kau sa good health namu tanan 1st family nako og 2nd family Lord sa side ni Glenn, daun Lord salamat kaau Lord na surpass namu ang k2 regarding ka Chiqui Lord sa dengue daun Lord sa condition ni Glenn Lord sa medical, ako lng ginaampo Lord nga bisan paman sa among pagkukulang we ask for forgiveness og Lord ikaw na bahala namu Lord wala mi mabuhat kung wala ka. Thank you Lord for all of this. Amen!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Nganu?!

Makalibog, pero nganung naa may mga tawo nga bisag unta malipay kung unsa imu nakabat.ot or kung unsay maaung mahitabo sa imung kinabuhi sa umaabot ky mag.guol man sila og usahay manghinaot pa nga dili lang unta mahitabo ng maau nga butang sa imung kinabuhi, it seems like mura kag gi curse, makaguol pero nganu man? mga tawo nga you thought malipay kung unsa may maaung mahitabo sa imung kinabuhi pero dili diay, kay ikaguol diay to nila, makasubo pamalandungon.

Lesson Learned: Kung naay maayo nga balita or nahitabo sa imung kinabuhi, tell it to those person you trust and those person nga you think who would be happy for you and support you all the way.. Not those person who has a grudge on you or those who hate you seeing succeed.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Long Distance Relationship Rescue

1. ASK THE IMPORTANT QUESTIONS. Once you and your sweetie have decided to pursue a long distance relationship, sit down and have a talk. Clarify everything; ask all the questions you have in mind. Set the rules, agree on them. This will definitely save you from a lot of pain if things don't work out in the end.
2. COMMUNICATE EVERYDAY. Keeping in touch is not so hard in this day and age. You can send each other short e-meals, even from work, or agree on a time when you can chat and talk about your day. Find ways to let each other know how you're doing.
3. TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HAVING SOME TIME FOR YOUR SELF. While some people don't think being in a long distance relationship has any advantages, they,re mistaken. This is the perfect time for you to spend time with your friends and family to have solo trips and explore on your own. This will truly help you become a better and stronger person.
4. PURSUE COMMON INTERESTS. Even though you're apart You can both play the same online game or watch the same movie and share your experiences with it. Read the same book, and share what you think about it. This will help lessen the pain of the distance. And if you're still having doubts, just remember what Leslie Karsner says: "Long distance romances can work; they just need a little extra effort and some planning."

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Decisions

Sometimes we can make rush decisions without even thinking what could later on be the effect and outcome, even the small decisions we make in our daily lives could make changes little by little till it gets bigger. I say this in accordance to what I experienced awhile ago when I was invited to have a dinner in my close friend's house since she just moved to a new apartment. Well, I realized that I should have turned down her (ka live-in)partner's invite when he asked me to just go with him riding his motorcycle to Caryl's house instead of his (ka live-in)my close friend ~ since she's tired of going back and fort with him riding his motorcycle running errands. We'll it came to my mind right away not go since It seems and sounded not proper to me ~ well, I don't have anything against the person but I'm just trying to protect future happenings not only that I protect my family(my husband) but for myself as well, but I came to realized that almost all the time when in situations like this I get myself caught unguarded of the decisions I make due to my excitement and my outgoing persona that's why I can affirm to the invite. Now when I relate to my husband all the things happened awhile ago to the activity that I attended, I feel so guilty the part when I relate to him that I went riding with my close friend's partner(ka live-in) to go to Caryl's house and realized that this is not what he wanted, that this is not what I wanted and this is not what we expected to happen. I always found myself guilty after when I already decided and when the situation already happened. Every time when I get home from somewhere when me and some friends have this little socialization, I always remind myself that next time in some little or big gatherings I should be more extra careful with my decision making and actions in dealing each person in the circle of friends. I need to know more of myself and I need to know more things that could distract me, or be an exchange to this kind of situation without sabotaging my happiness, I really need to find this out deep within me. So help me God!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Nostalgic

I feel like a child now sobbing, as I'm currently listening to Henry Mancini's version of Moon River, it reminds me a lot of things on the past, remembering my Lola, I used to grow up with her, my mom and her late siblings. I used to remember that what I'm feeling now was just like before, my early childhood, before my grade school I cried at the middle of the night when I heard old and mellow songs while thingking that I don't want to live alone and I don't want the people around me gone, especially my mom especially time.. that would seem so long ago very long those times when my age was just like our youngest brother now. I'm thinking that time is so cruel, why do things have to end, why do people gone, why is it that they'll just stay? It hurts and is unacceptable to me, I can't bear the fact of life now...

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Uplift Ourselves

Don't mind those people who easily judge, don't be bitter and just move on! We know ourselves better than them! =) Stay happy and strong!

If you're holding grudges based on "the principle of the matter." ha! I have to laugh @ that. Someone hurt u & now you're hurting yourself.

Above are things which encourages us. Life is not that easy, we want to live peacefully within ourselves and always ask God to bless us everyday, but there really are people who say negative things to us, sometimes we can't blame them just because we don't know what is really going on deep inside them that caused them to be like that, maybe due to social pressures or due to some rules of the society in which are applicable to others and to some do not, but in anyway, still there judgment to us affects us, and that is why we need to keep on reminding ourselves in the above quotes. So if there are those who judge you, don't take it by heart, because I guess the matter is within them and not within us, so there is nothing to worry about.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Moving forward for the New Year's

One more day and 2009 is about to end, another year indeed! 2010! I'm happy and I'm thankful to God that I'm able to get through life's ups and downs, I'm so blessed!

HOPES, DREAMS and WISH
Now it's time to move forward with courage, will and determination, hopes, dreams, in joy and more happiness for 2010. I'm hoping and praying that everything goes well or even better for 2010, for Glenn's career, as well as for my career hopefully and for our future, I'm praying that our good Lord will guide and bless us and to each of our family and to us as a couple good health.

RESOLUTIONS
These are the things that I will engage into for 2010.

1. I will start to read books at least 2 books per month (motivational/self-help books, or love stories)
2. I will take civil service exam on May or November (hoping for a good result in all Glenn's documents and requirements so he got to embark early this year)
3. I will look and settle for a good job that is within my knowledge and capabilities.
4. I will join and engage myself to activities that will enhance my skills, knowledge and personality e.g
5. I will look for ways in which I could earn money just to provide my little basic personal expenses just as soap, lotion, deodorant, fruits, oatmeal etc.
6. I will do some 10-15 minutes stretching or exercise before I go out on my bedroom or before the sun sets.
7. I will keep in touch with girl friends and gay friends.
8. I will travel and unwind on holidays e.g summer, fiestas, Christmas, New Year
9. I will practice gift giving (humble/small presents) not only on occasions in a way of thanking people part of my life.
10. I will keep in touch with Glenn always in a positive way assuring him that wherever I am, He can trust me that I will see myself doing what is good for both of us (no third parties no cheating).
11. I will engage to outdoor activities e.g sunrise, sunsets, biking, walking, swimming
12. I will pray and meditate to thank God for everything before I sleep and when I wake up.

Remembering 2009

I'm learning to love life, I'm learning to appreciate it everyday, I'm also thankful for my ever supportive partner in life... my husband. Throughout all my agonizing Christmas years after the death of my mom, I've never been so happy and is able to accept the reality until the years of 2006 and 2008 (that times of year I was able to celebrate and embrace Christmas with joy in my heart and found myself that I'm moving on my life after mom)

Christmases during mom's time was the best ever and I'm thankful for her of those years, I've been so happy and I so treasure those years of my childhood, those memories always stays in my heart, and mom wherever you are right now, for all the things that have happened in my life I know your watching, it's been so hard for me that you are not here, but I'm thankful for the life lessons that you've been teaching me, I may not be a perfect daughter for you but you know that i love you, I'm sorry I wasn't able to show you that I cared for you, I'm sorry for being so immature, I regret much that I wasn't able to tell you that before you were gone, but now I know you know about this. I love you mom! Please mom help me get through all life's obstacles and help me pray for the better! I love you!

Life indeed is beautiful I thank God for this gift, might as well celebrate it! and I'm thankful now that I'm learning to enjoy every moment of it with happiness and joy, just as like my 2008 Christmas, though it's not perfect but I'm happy I didn't waste the opportunity to rejoice Jesus Christ's birth and I was able to embrace the new year 2009 too whole heartedly!

At first months of January and February, April and May I was able to start with taking care of my health and it worked, I was happy also that I get to sleep upstairs on the month of January after Thara's operation, able to celebrate Jens graduation as my husband asked me to in respect of my family, able to support my husband in his last semester in school before he graduate June to October, and able to know my cousins and be close to them, able to enjoy life with college friends to as well as high school, now this time able to go here with Glenn in Manila to support his training and soon I'm hoping he will embark and can start work. Even though 2009 is not perfect but I'm thankful that I'm able to survive it's ups and downs but it's ups up weight it's downs. At least I'm able to enjoy it. Now, as I look back, I'm happy and satisfied! I also thank the Lord above for His support despite of my imperfections.

Now, as the year is about to end and as Christmas would be next week, I'm hoping and wishing and praying that everything would just be okay or even greater, I'm asking for God's guidance and enlightenment on the best things that I could possibly do for this coming days before the year ends and for this coming new year!

Thank you Jesus and this I offer to you! Belated Happy Birthday! Merry Christmas to all and a Blessed Prosperous New Year!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Life is full of twists and turns

As i looked at pictures of someone i know, I realized that life is full of twists and turns. I know this woman in the picture (Yone Galo) since I was in high school, I look upon her on how the way she deal with herself in college till she got work, till she married this man from our place who happens to be her workmate too, I learned from my sister who happens to be her husband's workmate too that they separated because of certain reasons not that clear to me but is just a hearsay like this woman is having an affair before she went outside Philippines, and that now that she's in the other country I learned that she will petition her husband to go follow her, but now as I see her pic she married white, and I asked myself "why is that so?", then I answered "Maybe things happen to her like this because she wanted too, maybe she's not contended with her life with his first husband, maybe she has so many dreams in which his husband cannot provide, maybe she doesn't love her husband anymore" and a lot of maybe's... This is so sad, then I realized nga naa raba koy character nga dili ma contented kung unsai naa nako, but I don't want this to happen to me, then I realized again "siguro dili pud ni niya gusto mahitabo sa iyang kinabuhi, siguro before katong nagpakasal siya sa iyang bana what is she thingking and she's feeling is that she loves her husband ug gusto cya mu spend the rest of her life with him, siguro she doesn't know that this will happen to her and to her 1st husband, or siguro this is what they call 30's syndrome nga agian sa married life og anha na daw ang uban ma usab" that's why I realized that we can't really guess life, it really has twists and turns, and this is what scares me.

There are a lot of temptations out there, lots of social pressures. When I have to choose, when life gets to turn and twists, I want to choose for the better of my love ones, I want to choose to hold on to promises...

to be continued... needs some research and proofs on this on ate roche papa glenn

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Inspiring chat night.....

I don't know what's happening exactly, but my brain really works this time, and if it works my ideas are mostly crazy, maybe the music i played has got to do with it. Exchange ideas with a friend (melanie) on things like the music we're listening the posts we're making on fb, the vacation shes planning, and our plans for the new year! Our chat was that fun because I get to annoy her with my new found crazy vocabulary like freaking out is now freaking in laughing out loud is now laughing in loud because we cant literally laugh because were chatting and so on... here's our chat goes:

aleish_313: lol buzzing
BUZZ!!!
aleish_313: wats dat mean
aleish_313: ahahahhah
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: unsa ka orasa matulog
miyoshi_kimi: wla mu nag simbang gabi dha?
aleish_313: i like simbang gabi
aleish_313: but im married to a man nga irihis
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: and tapuls
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: nahan pud unta ko kng naa lng ko kuyog
aleish_313: hay wa najud ko ka simba
miyoshi_kimi: kay lisud kng ako ra
aleish_313: u know wat nahan bya ko magsimba pro si glenn noh kung naa na mi sulod simbahan ky sige panawag
aleish_313: kalagot kaau
miyoshi_kimi: huh
aleish_313: panaway
miyoshi_kimi: unsay
miyoshi_kimi: unsay sawayon?
aleish_313: hmmm usahay ang wali sa pari
aleish_313: huhuhuhu
aleish_313: kalagot kaau
miyoshi_kimi: huh
miyoshi_kimi: ang wali sa pari?
aleish_313: ako unta feel nako maminaw og musimba
miyoshi_kimi: sawayon?
aleish_313: siya murag dili
miyoshi_kimi: huh
aleish_313: not literally pero dghan cyag comments
aleish_313: lool
aleish_313: bisan unsa lang
aleish_313: iya makit.an
aleish_313: naa cya comment
miyoshi_kimi: yawa sad ana gud
aleish_313: ahahahahah
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
aleish_313: lol ayaw sad oi ingna yawa
miyoshi_kimi: saonz
aleish_313: welll murag ana makatintal
aleish_313: dats y
miyoshi_kimi: amaw
aleish_313: huhuhuhu
miyoshi_kimi: hehehehe
miyoshi_kimi: dli cya yawa oi
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: kuyawa na
miyoshi_kimi: pina shortcut
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha amaw jud
aleish_313: lol .... hays... kung mu simba ko i feel it raba jud
aleish_313: wid ol my heart
aleish_313: aw i thot yawa'
aleish_313: ahahh
aleish_313: yeah i get it
miyoshi_kimi: lol
miyoshi_kimi: katawa lng ko nimu
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: amaw jud ai
miyoshi_kimi: wat tym ka sleep lage
BUZZ!!!
aleish_313: hmm karon taod2x atot
aleish_313: maglabandera pa raba ko ugma
miyoshi_kimi: huh
miyoshi_kimi: laba ka
miyoshi_kimi: lakaw man gani ko ugma
aleish_313: asa u
aleish_313: mypaka lakaw
aleish_313: ako dia ra ako lubot
aleish_313: sa chair
aleish_313: huhu
miyoshi_kimi: naay importante lakaw
aleish_313: tsk
aleish_313: daun ka dri next month
miyoshi_kimi: uu daun ko sa manila dli dha lol
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: jOkE
aleish_313: lool
aleish_313: hmmm
aleish_313: i hope magkakita ta
aleish_313: suroya ko dri... pls
aleish_313: lol
miyoshi_kimi: magkita ta kng makig kita ka
miyoshi_kimi: adto sa manila oi
aleish_313: lol makigkita ko
aleish_313: kung naa ko money
miyoshi_kimi: kay importante bya ko anahaon
aleish_313: pero kung apiki basin dili huhu
aleish_313: dili ka kasuroy nako dri?
aleish_313: like imu kung arion dayon ig uli nimu sa manila kuyog ko ky adto ko matog
miyoshi_kimi: huh
aleish_313: ahahha
miyoshi_kimi: sus kalayo ana
miyoshi_kimi: nya nag agad ko sa sked didto
aleish_313: 1 and a half only
aleish_313: hrs
miyoshi_kimi: apiki na pra nko mag byahi2x
aleish_313: huhuhuhu
aleish_313: how sad
miyoshi_kimi: kaw nlng kaha kuyog ni glenn
aleish_313: lagi
aleish_313: kung naa ko money
aleish_313: swear
miyoshi_kimi: ok
miyoshi_kimi: kuyog nlng niya
miyoshi_kimi: maski day before ko larga nya sleepover ka nko for a night
aleish_313: yes sure
miyoshi_kimi: yeah
miyoshi_kimi: hehe
miyoshi_kimi: nahimuot ko
miyoshi_kimi: murag one night stand ahehehe
miyoshi_kimi: one night only
miyoshi_kimi: hahahaha
aleish_313: knta manang one night only
aleish_313: loool
aleish_313: hla excited ko
aleish_313: huhuhu
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
aleish_313: puede makikain nalang ko
aleish_313: puede
aleish_313: ?
miyoshi_kimi: lage para kuyog ta whole day
aleish_313: kung ang aking pera ay kasya lang sa plite
aleish_313: looool
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
aleish_313: like plite padung pauli ra
aleish_313: no extra huhuhuhu
aleish_313: puede ba?? bisag 1/4 lang sa imu gikaon
aleish_313: loooool
miyoshi_kimi: la ra pwdi ta malling stroll or picture2x
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: share nlng ta kaon
aleish_313: loool wr so luoy
aleish_313: especially me
aleish_313: huhuhu
miyoshi_kimi: basta medyo mag agad lng sad ta sa budget ha
aleish_313: want to pic2x sa makati og moa
miyoshi_kimi: basin aaarti au ka
aleish_313: loool
miyoshi_kimi: lage moa
miyoshi_kimi: MOA
aleish_313: lol arti ka diha
aleish_313: dapugon tika jan
miyoshi_kimi: ahaha
miyoshi_kimi: share ta kaon
miyoshi_kimi: sa pungko2x
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
aleish_313: huhuhu kaon lang ta kwek2x
miyoshi_kimi: mu kaon ka ug pungko2x?
aleish_313: miski kwek2x mahal'
aleish_313: huhuhu
miyoshi_kimi: lol
aleish_313: bawn lang ko mineral water ko oi kanang gallon
aleish_313: tag 50
aleish_313: ahahahah
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aleish_313: how sad sad ani oi
miyoshi_kimi: ahak mani oi
aleish_313: atot kaau
aleish_313: na pobre dri
aleish_313: huhuhuhu
miyoshi_kimi: katawanan au ta
aleish_313: kaluoy sad nato oi
aleish_313: ok ra kaau way kaunay lagi
aleish_313: kung laag2x lang picture
aleish_313: ang pangutana mu reklamo bya ni atong tiyan ay
miyoshi_kimi: btaw share gani ta...
miyoshi_kimi: i mean ug unsa ra makaya nko
miyoshi_kimi: hap
aleish_313: the more ta magkiat the more ta magutom
aleish_313: hoist ok ra oi
aleish_313: amaw
aleish_313: makishare ra gani ko
aleish_313: atot kaau ka mel
aleish_313: dapogs
aleish_313: puede ra ngohiong
aleish_313: pero la ngohiong dri
aleish_313: hoi speaking og ngohiong
aleish_313: dad.i ko beh ig ari nimu
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: lage
miyoshi_kimi: aw dli ko kada ana oi
aleish_313: gigutom nuon ko dah
miyoshi_kimi: kay mapanus nana
aleish_313: hoi nagdla man ko sa plane
miyoshi_kimi: hehehe
aleish_313: og ngohiog
aleish_313: loool
aleish_313: dili oi
aleish_313: grrrrr
aleish_313: gi freezer nako pag.abot dri
aleish_313: hihih daun giloto nako
aleish_313: hmm nam2x
aleish_313: sus gigutom nuon ko dah
aleish_313: atot
miyoshi_kimi: hehehe
miyoshi_kimi: kaon
aleish_313: way ngohiong oi
miyoshi_kimi: kaon lng gud dha
miyoshi_kimi: g gutom man kaha ka
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: hoi
miyoshi_kimi: nag fb pka
aleish_313: unsa imu kaon
aleish_313: oo
miyoshi_kimi: karn?
aleish_313: o
miyoshi_kimi: la oi tubig
aleish_313: same here
aleish_313: tubig on my right
aleish_313: lool
miyoshi_kimi: ahaha ako on my left
miyoshi_kimi: nag unsa ka sa fb?
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: nag sound trip ko
BUZZ!!!
aleish_313: same here
aleish_313: lauchcast
miyoshi_kimi: ni out nko sa fb
miyoshi_kimi: uu
aleish_313: launch cast
miyoshi_kimi: kato imu link
aleish_313: sa yahoo
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: hahaha
aleish_313: imu diay g click
aleish_313: looool
miyoshi_kimi: chillout music
aleish_313: hay at last dili naka hard headed
aleish_313: looooll
miyoshi_kimi: amaw
miyoshi_kimi: niha raman ni
aleish_313: unsai genre????
miyoshi_kimi: rnb soul
miyoshi_kimi: nya station ko pili kay chill
aleish_313: daun
miyoshi_kimi: mao na
aleish_313: hala
aleish_313: wala lagi chill ako
aleish_313: unsai nag.una sa chill ba
aleish_313: nga station
aleish_313: wala lagi chill nga list akoa
miyoshi_kimi: huh
aleish_313: mel unsai naanod gani sa tagalo
aleish_313: g
aleish_313: naanod gihapon noh?
miyoshi_kimi: huh
aleish_313: wait.. wait
miyoshi_kimi: unsay naanod
miyoshi_kimi: bah
aleish_313: asa ang chill lagi
aleish_313: rnb soul ako click
aleish_313: daun wala chill
aleish_313: jud
aleish_313: unsai before og after sa chill
aleish_313: sa list?
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: alice chill
aleish_313: huh??
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: alice chill lage oi
miyoshi_kimi: mao na name sa station
aleish_313: hala noh
aleish_313: wala lagi na dri
aleish_313: ang naa dri noh
aleish_313: new jack swing
aleish_313: quite storm
miyoshi_kimi: murag wla na sako
aleish_313: chuva2x etx.
aleish_313: lol
miyoshi_kimi: huh
aleish_313: sure?
aleish_313: sure ka sa rnb soul nimu g click jud
miyoshi_kimi: daghan ako mga lite fm raman
aleish_313: lite office music akoa
aleish_313: sa lite sounds
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: kita nako sa alice chill mel
aleish_313: naa sa lite sounds na belong
aleish_313: sa akoa
aleish_313: lool
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: ah hehe
miyoshi_kimi: lite sounds
miyoshi_kimi: ?
aleish_313: yes
aleish_313: lite sounds man ko gnina lite office music ko g choose
aleish_313: nag emote2x lagi
miyoshi_kimi: ah hehehe
miyoshi_kimi: nice dha
miyoshi_kimi: your beautiful
aleish_313: unsai nice diha
aleish_313: huh?
miyoshi_kimi: sa imu sounds karn bah
aleish_313: unsai your beautiful ba
miyoshi_kimi: ako kay your beautiful
aleish_313: awts
aleish_313: unsa man
miyoshi_kimi: its true
miyoshi_kimi: hahaha
aleish_313: alice chill?
miyoshi_kimi: ang song
miyoshi_kimi: sa lite office
aleish_313: aw hehhee
aleish_313: nag christmas song ko napud
aleish_313: ahaha
miyoshi_kimi: i saw ur face in a crowded place
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: i think
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahah
aleish_313: random ni
aleish_313: ilang songs
aleish_313: wait sa
aleish_313: awon nato kung pareha ta og song
aleish_313: sa lite office
miyoshi_kimi: ok
aleish_313: gplay nako
aleish_313: but advertisement pa
miyoshi_kimi: nya
BUZZ!!!
miyoshi_kimi: dli diay ur beautiful
miyoshi_kimi: its true
miyoshi_kimi: haha
miyoshi_kimi: la man ka kasugod gud
aleish_313: lol mura man ka nagtype og lyrics
aleish_313: looool
miyoshi_kimi: huwata sa
aleish_313: looool
aleish_313: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: lage nag type btaw
aleish_313: ur so funny
aleish_313: looool
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: lolllllllll
aleish_313: ur so ignoy
aleish_313: loool
aleish_313: ahaha
aleish_313: i mean
aleish_313: kita
aleish_313: ahahhaha
miyoshi_kimi: kaw ra dha
aleish_313: wer so funny
miyoshi_kimi: hahaha
aleish_313: wer like abnoy
aleish_313: loool
aleish_313: bored
aleish_313: ppl
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: hoi
aleish_313: on the floor
miyoshi_kimi: mu tiwas sad kaha ko skol noh
aleish_313: unsa man
miyoshi_kimi: minaw nka
aleish_313: nursing?
aleish_313: sa usc?
aleish_313: skul pud kaha ko
aleish_313: noh
miyoshi_kimi: huh
aleish_313: masteral
aleish_313: ill be around the spinners ang song
miyoshi_kimi: kinsa ingon nimu nursing ko
aleish_313: lol wala nag1yr bya ka diba
miyoshi_kimi: ilisan sa nko oi kay drama kau
aleish_313: lool i mean usc diay ka tiwas
aleish_313: mngt acct?
aleish_313: ako pud
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: makahilak ta
aleish_313: sa lite office music
BUZZ!!!
aleish_313: mel paminawa lagi to ang owl city
aleish_313: i think mu play to cya sa big hits
aleish_313: naa sa yahoo exclusives ang todays big hits
miyoshi_kimi: kadungog nko oi
aleish_313: kina ibabwan sa station
aleish_313: awts
miyoshi_kimi: nganu man diay to bah
aleish_313: nahan ka?
aleish_313: wala nahan ko sa tune
miyoshi_kimi: nag xmas song ko
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: wr crazy lagi
aleish_313: lol
miyoshi_kimi: ahaha
aleish_313: hoist ako pud skul kaha ko
aleish_313: work sako oi
miyoshi_kimi: dli ko usc balik oi
aleish_313: asa ka
aleish_313: work sako mel oi
miyoshi_kimi: pede pud kuyog ta
aleish_313: daun kung ok na skul2x ko
miyoshi_kimi: mag nurse kaha ta mort
miyoshi_kimi: dli usc ha
aleish_313: lool nag nurse naman ka diba
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
aleish_313: 1 yr
aleish_313: nag.una ka nako
miyoshi_kimi: nurse nurse
aleish_313: grrrr
aleish_313: culinary nalang oi
miyoshi_kimi: dli oi
aleish_313: lool
miyoshi_kimi: amaw
miyoshi_kimi: asa man sad tawn ta mag culinary oi
miyoshi_kimi: mahal ana
aleish_313: driving nalang ta
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: a1
aleish_313: lol
miyoshi_kimi: hrm nlng
miyoshi_kimi: murag culinary haha
aleish_313: ayaw kapoy hrm oi
miyoshi_kimi: tourism
aleish_313: psychology
aleish_313: sa mga patulon
miyoshi_kimi: amaw
aleish_313: lol
miyoshi_kimi: yaw na oi
miyoshi_kimi: boring
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: dli nko ana boring nga course oi
miyoshi_kimi: kapoy
aleish_313: fashion designing
aleish_313: loool
miyoshi_kimi: ahaha
aleish_313: naa ba diha?
miyoshi_kimi: design ug kaboang
aleish_313: loool
miyoshi_kimi: lol
miyoshi_kimi: sus maau kau ko ana guro
miyoshi_kimi: hehe
miyoshi_kimi: sa swu or uc lng ta
miyoshi_kimi: yaw usc oi
aleish_313: unsa man
miyoshi_kimi: skwela bah
aleish_313: lagi
BUZZ!!!
aleish_313: unsa kaha nga course ba
aleish_313: or shorterm lang
miyoshi_kimi: pag business course nlng
miyoshi_kimi: banking and finance
aleish_313: lol maninda nalang ko sa amo
aleish_313: ahahhaha
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: amaw
miyoshi_kimi: banking kaha ko noh
aleish_313: english nalang ta
miyoshi_kimi: pede pud
aleish_313: ky magcall center ta
miyoshi_kimi: english course?
aleish_313: communications art
aleish_313: or kanang media2x ba
miyoshi_kimi: 4yrs
aleish_313: unsa gid na
miyoshi_kimi: masscom
aleish_313: yes
aleish_313: kana
aleish_313: masscom
miyoshi_kimi: pede pud
aleish_313: o diba???
aleish_313: yay
aleish_313: i like
miyoshi_kimi: naa ba diay swu ana
aleish_313: mura
miyoshi_kimi: pede pud
miyoshi_kimi: nahan pud ko ana
miyoshi_kimi: mao man ta na ko kuhaon b4
miyoshi_kimi: wla man usc oi
aleish_313: mura naa sa swu lagi
miyoshi_kimi: cge skol ta
aleish_313: hmmmm... literature nalan kaha
miyoshi_kimi: next yr
aleish_313: mura gamay nalang ato units ana
miyoshi_kimi: amaw ai
miyoshi_kimi: cge usab
aleish_313: ky credit na uban
miyoshi_kimi: sus
miyoshi_kimi: murag boring mana oi
aleish_313: loool
miyoshi_kimi: ma bored ta ana
aleish_313: sa arts and sciences unsai nindot
aleish_313: skwela kaha ta anang .... interior decorator
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: asa
aleish_313: bwahahah kani no padung gihapon ni sa wa
aleish_313: ahhaha
miyoshi_kimi: alangan cge man ka usab oi
aleish_313: mag sastry nalang ta oi
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: boang
aleish_313: l
miyoshi_kimi: kato ra oi
aleish_313: im luffin inside nasad
miyoshi_kimi: hahaha
miyoshi_kimi: practical nursing
miyoshi_kimi: mura naa sa swu
BUZZ!!!
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: ikaw usab napud
aleish_313: nakuha naman ka 1yr
aleish_313: alkansi ko
miyoshi_kimi: hoi dli na same ang tana skol lage oi
miyoshi_kimi: start over
aleish_313: lol yah pero naa jud macreditan mel
miyoshi_kimi: dli jud na sure
miyoshi_kimi: gamay raman to ko sub nya dli bya ko univ skwela ha
miyoshi_kimi: murag start jud
aleish_313: asa gani ka skul
miyoshi_kimi: kay ko klasmate ni padayon ug nursing
miyoshi_kimi: murag nag sugod cya
miyoshi_kimi: tojong
aleish_313: unsai tojong
miyoshi_kimi: tojong college
miyoshi_kimi: hoi pag sure oi
aleish_313: haha ikaw pag sure
aleish_313: tojong
miyoshi_kimi: amaw
aleish_313: ahahhaha
miyoshi_kimi: unsa man
aleish_313: bitaw
aleish_313: start over jud
miyoshi_kimi: ambotnimu oi
aleish_313: loooll ky tojong ihihi
aleish_313: peace
miyoshi_kimi: unsa bah
aleish_313: sa nursing ba
miyoshi_kimi: nahan ka skol or not
aleish_313: either of the two masscom nursing
aleish_313: or for the shorterm course
miyoshi_kimi: start over
aleish_313: ky culinary or sastry
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: luffin inside
miyoshi_kimi: mahal mana culinary oi
aleish_313: again
aleish_313: loool
miyoshi_kimi: kaw daghan man kaha ka kwarta
aleish_313: sastry
aleish_313: cant get over
aleish_313: puede nice term
aleish_313: fashion designing
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: naa daw barato
miyoshi_kimi: pede pud culinary
miyoshi_kimi: asa man
miyoshi_kimi: nahan man sad ko
aleish_313: wala pako nailhan na skul
miyoshi_kimi: ang gasto lng gud oi
aleish_313: mag business daun tag cater
aleish_313: adto ta luto sa inyo
miyoshi_kimi: mahal au
aleish_313: loool
miyoshi_kimi: basin ma bankrupt ko
miyoshi_kimi: kng culinary
miyoshi_kimi: mahal
aleish_313: lol wt about me
aleish_313: bankrupt na daan
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
aleish_313:
miyoshi_kimi: kaw btaw ana
miyoshi_kimi: gusto
aleish_313: luffin inside napud
miyoshi_kimi: hahaha
miyoshi_kimi: daghan jud ka kwarta
miyoshi_kimi: dha
miyoshi_kimi: hehehe
aleish_313: dili nako lol
aleish_313: lil nako
aleish_313: laugh inside loud
miyoshi_kimi: ug dli ka
miyoshi_kimi: mag hinay2x nlng ko
aleish_313: ana ko ba
aleish_313: dili nako lol
aleish_313: lil nako
aleish_313: laugh inside loud
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
aleish_313: laughing inside loud
aleish_313: liiiiillll
miyoshi_kimi: ahehehehe
aleish_313: mabuang nako
aleish_313: dghan kaau crazy thots
aleish_313: sa ako brains
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: murag naa btaw ko plan ana ai
miyoshi_kimi: kay behind na kaau ko sa kalibutan
aleish_313: unsa ba?
miyoshi_kimi: mu skol
aleish_313: yeah right
aleish_313: take note
aleish_313: sa
aleish_313: gleeeeeeeeen
miyoshi_kimi: hoi
aleish_313: hoi sad
aleish_313: ikaw bya una
miyoshi_kimi: kaw ra jud cge use ana
aleish_313: ahahhahahah
aleish_313: pero ikaw
aleish_313: ang pionering
aleish_313: looool
miyoshi_kimi: once ra to
miyoshi_kimi: kaw pirmi
aleish_313: PIONERING
miyoshi_kimi: lol
miyoshi_kimi: hahahaha
aleish_313: LUFFIN INSIDE AGAIN
aleish_313: LIL
aleish_313: LIIIIIIIL
aleish_313: liiiiiiiiiil
aleish_313: liiiiiiiiiiiL
aleish_313: ako ky sumusunod raman ko
aleish_313: lil
aleish_313: because of that
aleish_313: we need to get bak
aleish_313: to skul
aleish_313: lil
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: wla nay knowledge
aleish_313: lil
aleish_313: right
aleish_313: how sad
miyoshi_kimi: maski stock knowledge
miyoshi_kimi: sayang ang utok
aleish_313: cyaro
aleish_313: kabalo sad ko asa gipatay si rizal
aleish_313: sa luneta park
aleish_313: looool
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
aleish_313: awts
aleish_313: lil
miyoshi_kimi: btaw kidding aside
aleish_313: char
aleish_313: kidding aside
aleish_313: no need to skul
aleish_313: ky naa naka english
aleish_313: lol
aleish_313: awts lil
miyoshi_kimi: lol
miyoshi_kimi: hahahaha
aleish_313: puede kidding beside?
aleish_313: ahahah
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
aleish_313: nagkatawa jud ko dri
aleish_313: mura ko mabuang
aleish_313: kinatawa
miyoshi_kimi: amaw
miyoshi_kimi: ako pud
miyoshi_kimi: hhahahaha
aleish_313: hoi late reaction
aleish_313: ahahahhaa
miyoshi_kimi: naana si lawrence oi
miyoshi_kimi: mag talk mi
aleish_313: awts
aleish_313: sige oi
miyoshi_kimi: hehehe
miyoshi_kimi: tulog nka
aleish_313: no luffin in anymore?
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha
miyoshi_kimi: mao jud
miyoshi_kimi: hahaha
aleish_313: hmm taod2x
aleish_313: imu nako byaan
miyoshi_kimi: we'll see
aleish_313: no person to joke out to
aleish_313: lol
miyoshi_kimi: kng asa ko ani padng
miyoshi_kimi: sa plan
aleish_313: yes... basta hopefully
miyoshi_kimi: unsa
aleish_313: next yr.. everythings good for us
miyoshi_kimi: mao jud
miyoshi_kimi: hope so
aleish_313: hay i hope nindot ang welcome sa atong year both
miyoshi_kimi: pls help me pray 4 me
aleish_313: more to friendship
aleish_313: and fun
miyoshi_kimi: apil nlng ko dha
aleish_313: yes!!!! yess!!!!
miyoshi_kimi: kay prayer btaw imu gift
aleish_313: ahahahah yes
miyoshi_kimi: ok thank u thank u
miyoshi_kimi: hehehehe
aleish_313: new yrs wish!!!
aleish_313: fun friendship love og stree free yr
aleish_313: next yr
miyoshi_kimi: mao jud
miyoshi_kimi: fun fun fun
miyoshi_kimi: and lasting friendship
aleish_313: lol yes cheers to that!!! lol nalingaw ko sa atong chat
aleish_313: ky wala ta gipang hiblod noh
aleish_313: looooooolllll
miyoshi_kimi: and good life for the both of us
aleish_313: yes bitaw and for our husbands and our married life
miyoshi_kimi: ahehehehe mao jud
miyoshi_kimi: kay lisud sad sometimes
miyoshi_kimi: wla man sad saun
aleish_313: bitaw.. pero at least not that worst
aleish_313: at least ato mga husbands wr always there
aleish_313: ang naka pait if they dont care anymore
miyoshi_kimi: yeah i know
miyoshi_kimi: that's true
miyoshi_kimi: ur right
aleish_313: exactly!!!
aleish_313: ahaah wer so o.a njud ahahah
aleish_313: but reality
aleish_313: it is!
miyoshi_kimi: ahahaha oa ta hehe
miyoshi_kimi: mao jud
aleish_313: ga diary ka
aleish_313: mag blog diay ko oi about sa akong 2009..
miyoshi_kimi: before
miyoshi_kimi: kato bata pko
aleish_313: og maghimu ko og list for 2010
miyoshi_kimi: ako hilig pa kaau ko mu suwat
miyoshi_kimi: kahbaw ka b4 nahan kaau ko mu suwat
miyoshi_kimi: karn dli na
aleish_313: ako pud sa una
aleish_313: naka publish ko sa skul
aleish_313: og article
aleish_313: ang title REALITIES BEHIND FANTASIES
miyoshi_kimi: mao naa ko diary sauna pag grad nko ug elem
miyoshi_kimi: nya cge pud ko suwat maski unsa
aleish_313: eehehhe ang story is about namu ni paul
aleish_313: hahah same here og poem pud
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
aleish_313: hays
miyoshi_kimi: hahaaay
aleish_313: karon man gud dili na ta kamao mu suwat
aleish_313: tungod sa
miyoshi_kimi: karn wla na gani ko patience ana
aleish_313: gleeeeeeen
miyoshi_kimi: ahahahaha
aleish_313: luffin in napud
aleish_313: ahaha
aleish_313: sige na oi
aleish_313: brb mag blog sako
miyoshi_kimi: okies
miyoshi_kimi: buzz lng
miyoshi_kimi: hehe
miyoshi_kimi: hinay sa imu luffin in ha
miyoshi_kimi: hehehe
Last message received on 12/17 at 2:27 AM
aleish_313: lol

and a lot.....

Well, aside of this I just want to express that I want everything to happen the soonest time possible for glenn and I for both of us... I hope everything will be ok, and I hope I get to fulfill my plans next yr, nga mapahimutang na nako tanan for myself as well as for both of us as a couple...

Friday, December 11, 2009

Hoping Wishing and Praying

I'm hoping for the soonest time possible, the earliest time possible for glenn's embarkation because I can't wait to restart my life and start anew! My life for 9 or 7 years has been so missed up! and this time is our/my chance to rebuild. I'm hoping wishing and praying that everything goes well from glenn's health to glenn's documents to glenn's visa interview to glenn's date of embarkation! Everything Everything... All this Lord I offer to you. Amen!

Friday, October 16, 2009

deep inside

deep inside, i'm happy that i got married
deep inside, i'm happy that i got a good man
deep inside, i'm happy that i'm officially a wife
deep inside, i'm glad that despite the imperfect love i have for my husband, he's always there to understand, accept and would continue to love.

i love you Glenn and thank you for your love...

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Low day

I suddenly felt really low and depressed. It's not okay to feel this way, it really ruined my day and worst! affects my health considering that I'm still in the process of coping up from flu. This is because I'm so disappointed with myself seeing some people out there able to adjust, live happily and were able to move on. Unlike me who's stuck with all these pressures in life and with these people around me not ever supportive which could really have a negative effect in me. I guess no one could ever understand me except myself and at this time no one could tap my back to say "hey it'll be okay" except me. I need to be alone and reflect and I need to encourage myself that if they're able to move on so can I! "Yes, I can!". As, i read the mag today it says: "Having a mindset that you are stressed/depressed can make your skin look sallow and lackluster" so "Keep It Positive", "Detoxify Yourself From Negativity" "Maintain A Positive Outlook Makes You Exude Confidence" (necessary component of being beautiful) "Feed Your Mind, Body & Soul with Positive Things" and "Yes,You Can!"......

Saturday, August 22, 2009

my random guide

glowing skin
exercise
eat fruits vegetables milk
wash face 2-3 times a day for a smooth glowing skin and to keep away from blackheads enlarge pores and pimples

How to Find Peace in Madness is to MEDITATE

*breathe deeply inhale exhale
* visualize... think of places that makes u happy and calm
*reapeat a calming statement "im peaceful and will succeed

nude make up
bronze powder
lipgloss colored beige brown
eyeliner


to fall in love:
have your "ME" time
reconnect with girlfriends releases megadoses of oxytocin, a bonding hormone in your brain that helps you feel connected

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

LIFE REBOOT

These maybe the right reasons why i live in the past:

*You may be living in your past because you’re using it as an excuse for the bad aspects of your present life.

I’ve known people who claimed that their neglected upbringing was responsible for all that was weak, defiant, or negative in them. I’ve known people who held one bad incident in their life responsible for everything bad that has occurred ever since — as if this sob story was their personal trump card with which they could turn the blame whenever they couldn’t admit responsibility for their own failures in life. When you proclaim that your problems are a direct result from incidents rooted in your past, your argument gets weaker every day. It’s true that everyone needs recovery time to heal from painful or traumatic life experiences, but they aren’t to be used as a lifetime pass for making excuses.

*Some people don't have anything in their daily lives therefore no future plans , no expectations and no hopes as well..

Friday, July 31, 2009

Owning a Laptop

dugay najud ko nangandoy nga maka laptop, naka idea ko sa mga movie nga when actors and actresses plays to have one nya they can do what want having laptop like for personal diary like blogging and posting or saving some important documents... hihihi karon naggamit ko og laptop nindot kaau ang feeling lingkod2x lang sa sofa.. nya naay personal computer sa top sa akong lap.. char murag korek... hehehe try2x lang suya ko!!! unta naa pud ko oi... as soon as possible hehehehe sige bye....

Thursday, March 26, 2009

bahalag magkina-unsa

i will let myself drowned to life's obstacles, this is too much. kung unsa man gani ni ugma then pagbuot nani sa Ginoo tanan this is what He planned for me this is what is written in His book of life. if it is good then i thank you Lord or if bad then i guess myself will drowned to this bad fate i have.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

what's in store for me?

1 day to go orientation na namu sa acs, to days to go birthday napud nako, but im much more thrilled sa orientation unya ra na ang birthday i don't see any reason to celebrate it and have some party2x kinda like, unless it will give me a reason to celebrate, i mean that i need to be sure beforehand the acs, still has doubts kung mao na ba jud ni. mixed emotion kaau, excited but i'm holding it back dili ko gusto masuhong, life is so playful my fate is shaking, lots of down times and i don't want it to happen to me again this time because i feel like i'm gonna lose my life. please help. crossing fingers again... don't let me down this time ohhh life... oh God!

i wonder what's in store for me in this company... i wish the best of this.. and i hope everything is in place. i need to pursue this.. i need this so much.. whatever are the challenges i need to take heart, to be calm need to have presence of mind to be strong and firm.

i need to earn a living
i need to get a life
i need to live!

so help me God.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

is this it?

i don't need hassles please... it's too much for me to take this time being so preoccupied with life's dilemma, what i need is an easy way out, so if this is it and this is now for real then i wil be so much grateful about it if not and still has a lot of hassles then i will go back wandering where i am hiding and think that God made me so much to be so unlucky. Well, anything goes for tomorrow, i need to be myself need to step up a little and hope that everything goes so well. In case not, then reality is too much to take. sigh again and again

Monday, March 16, 2009

and i quote,

“He who finds himself, loses his misery.” - Matthew Arnold

i should remind myself and better understand the following so as not to be a miserable person, what you feel why you feel and why you behave as you behave or no longer have to behave that way

http://www.selfcreation.com/self.htm
http://www.ecst.csuchico.edu/~yasalde/selfawareness.html

Sunday, March 15, 2009

the so called "seven sins"

i took a view from multiply's new customized theme entitled "the seven sins". it hits me like a dart and i learned from it exactly enumerating the so called sins at the header of the page as follows: LUST, SLOTH, ENVY, PRIDE, AVARICE(greediness), GLUTTONY & ANGER. whoooahhh! this is really surreal and i'm about to count how many do i recently have from the most to the least sin. I've got a plenty of sloth, a huge pride, i guess a little of envy, and some anger and some avarice.

now i'm aware i've got 80-90% of these seven sins, i guess i need to let go and refrain from these type of sins, but where and how do i start when all we have is a sinful world full of temptations that pushes us to sin?

Friday, March 13, 2009

choose wellness, have a balanced diet

ASSESMENT
Height: 5'1" or round off to 5'2" (hehehe)
Weight: 45 kgs/ 99-100 lbs
ideal weight is (44.9-55.6kg)
Age: 25 F
BMI: 19.0
Physical Activity: Light
Total Energy Requirement(Calorie per day): 2000 kcal

MY WELLNESS GOAL
* i would like to gain weight by (5 kg) exactly no more no less

THE FOOD PYRAMID



EXERCISE
30 mins. to 1 hour walking

MEAL PLANNING RECOMMENDATION


* 2-3 glasses nido full cream/day
* 1 tsp. oil/sugar
* 1 pc proteins (e.g fish, chicken or 1 match box size pork)
* 1/2 cup vegetables
* 1 pc/slice fruits
* 1 cup camote 2 slice bread 1/2 cup corn 1/2 cup rice 1/2 cup noodles
* 8 glasses of water/day

whatever are these....

i woke up this morning noticing glenn explored again our new bought samsung digi cam guessing that maybe he noticed the big difference of quality between the samsung and sony camera, trying to convinced himself that samsung has the better quality in which obviously sony is much better. yes, after having our sony digi cam before in 2005 which his father bought, i find no other camera better than sony brand compared to our family's canon digi and to our samsung digi right now.

as random things happen i come to think of "maybe we'll buy another digi cam" i opened it up to him but unlike me (an instant buyer) glenn's not. being a person what you called in bisaya (sige2x daun, hala2x daun dili maghuna2x) considering all the facts with all glenn's excuses, made it clear that buying another one is a big NO! but the more i'm being restricted the more i pushed of doing it that in the end leads me in despair, and it did happen. i supposed to prepare him brunch but i didn't not unless he'll buy me one, even though he kept reminding me to cook but he didn't put a weight on it pushing me that would make me think it's my responsibility to prepare food for him because he knew that i would ask and exchange for it (like a new camera) in which affirmatively it's a NO already to him.

i know i'm too much, too much being me. maybe like a criminal a sinner. yes this is so unbecoming, but still can't help it but to shut my mouth in despair. (ngluod-luod pa jud bisag dili sakto bisag walay ikapalit) yes and i know this is not right. well i shut up and trying to compose myself and clear things... isn't it much better? after all these it made me think "nga unta naa palang ko kwarta pagpalit jud ko dili ko mu demand but wala jud ko kwarta, nga unta kung naa pako work naa unta to sa una but due to some fortuitous nawad-an kog work, "but nganu dili manka mu work?" i said to myself secretly... "ang2x nawad.an na og self confidence og gana and all that reasoning... hopefully naa untay work na mudawat na nako oi (specifically my preferred company) and then they'll see my potential og wala nay chi chi burichi pa nga process, kanang dili naka lisud-lisuron og i torture" Yes! with all these things, this really came to mind then and there.

Ironically, after all those mind drifters... someone called me on the phone the same number who used to call me 3 weeks or 2 weeks ago for my final interview that i turned down, ACS company. the company i applied for data entry in which my first interview was conducted by my college classmat, which i don't feel good about it, thinking that it don't went well and i don't think that i really pass as he is like torturing me in the interview letting me realize what an unclear person i am and what a bad employee i was, but even that, i still convince him that if i'll get hired i'll be an asset to the company considering that i'm a fast typist and when i work i'm really particular with the quality and the quantity of work. even though i always get late to work and does absences in which i promise myself secretly that when this company hires me "magtinarung nako" ky this is my last chance and hoping that whatever decisions i made glenn will support all the way not leaving me anywhere or like if he leaves he will surely promise he will always be there for me and supports me.

not so much more....

well yes they called me again and i learned that as we talk the lady doesn't call me for the final interview anymore but for the orientation, in which i'm happy about but to her mistake it saddened me, it was all wrong after all their is no orientation to happen about, i wonder if it is purposely made. as i will recall it for you, i don't respond to their call for final interviews because i don't think i need one because without the final interview and directly to the orientation, i could assure them that i will really work hard for myself and for the company since i need the money (so badly need it), yes that was a mistake invitation "did they do it purposely? just to make it sure nga ako gusto ky dretso na orientation or nanimaws lang sila nako of not going there and responding to there final interview call? ambot wala nako kabalo" but this is so so so ironic, karon pajud nahitabo considering that i'm having a cold war with glenn with that camera thing, that i need the money, the work, and the independence... haayy ka ironic jud.

it's like fate is playing with me or God is playing with me. as much as i hope for this, i'm trying not to, kay ma despair lang ko which leads me nga mawad.an og gana or hope sa kinabuhi. remember! it was a mistake call, i guess they still call me for final interview, i'm not yet clearly hired, they said they'll call me next week for the job offer or maybe namakak sila siguro ila lang ko gipaasa nga manawag sila nya dili diay to or dili diay to job offer but final interview diay to.. nanimaws siguro sila ba, ambot jud wala nako kabalo.

whatever it is....

it's killing me, somewhat excites me, like i'm getting a nervous breakdown, a mild stroke, a heart attack. what the?!! ugggghhhhh. my heart beats fast my mind is thinking things over and over again for this matter. i need to compose myself convincing this is just all nothing.

whatever it is...

maybe i will not settle for anything less as what a friends' advice is. well i just hope that this is it, this is really is it, that if they'll call it's already the job offer for the requirements and not some kind of interviews for qualifying anymore, hoping that my fate will not let me down. but when they call and it happens that it is for final interview? certainly this time i'll go there and i'l do the best that i can do and be the best that i can be so help me God and hopefully hoping for the best outcome and if its not a good outcome? or if they'll turn me down? i guess my life's fate is really like this maybe i'm not that good enough for anybody else and maybe they think i deserve less. This is so depressing, i know i'll say to you Lord "ikaw na bahala oi, i know i'm not a good child siguro i deserve this siguro i don't deserve a chance again anymore in this world." this is... if and when they will call me again nextweek by monday or wednesday as they promised. or maybe if they will not call maybe they just trick me or nanimaws lang sila or maybe dili najud muhatag og other chance si Lord. i know Lord kadaghan na sila nanawag i know chance nato nako but gusto ko sure ball.. well, IKAW na bahala Lord.


anyways.... duhhhhhh!!! whatever are these things bisag unsa oi. kung manawag sila usab maau.. kung dili... "i accept nalang Shiela nga gibinuanggan raka or dili naka tagaan og chance, after nimu sila g.turn down?" kung manawag sila og muingon nga job offer and for requirements? mas maau horah! thank you so so much and thank you so so much Lord. or kung for final interview gani, hala sige go nalang ko bringing the best of everything, kung madawat miracle jud ni Lord and i thank for it, kung dili i should accept nga mao najud ni gihatag nga fate sa akong kinabuhi because i'm not that perfect though and i need to accept nga maybe dili nako tagaan og chance... basta oi...

whatever

whatever

whatever

are these......

Thursday, March 12, 2009

a friends advice

out of being depressed still i hangout to a place i used to hangout, that is being in front of a computer browsing through the internet searching what it has to offer just to fill the boredom and enlighten the day. then i noticed that one of my friends is online. so what i did was, i called him at home. we made some chika2x the same nonsense things we talk about like we used to in high school. this person whom i talked to is fund of going out as a matter of fact as we talk, he invites me to go out then and there eat, hangout and talk. due to being lazy i refused, imagine! being lazy caused me of not taking a bath for i guess 3 days. (uh! gross..) but as he beg me irritatingly, well, he made me say yes. i prepared for about 30mins and then right after he came, we went to one of our place's hangout eat and talk. just as he sees that i need someone to talk to, he let me open up myself and my concerns. as i did, this person listened and gave his best advice/s. to summarize all of his advices i need to bullet it below.

* that i need have this self-awareness
* after being aware, i need to make resolutions
* and to stick to my resolutions

As he shares a lot, i realize that he is right guessing that its not the problem that is the problem but the problem is just me. He thinks that i'm not the Shiela that he used to know when we were in our adolescent stage (that because a lot has happened) but he believes that i could become more of what was happening to me right now that i could do better despite of everything. that whatever the criticisms or being not supported by a love one is not a hindrance, because he said if you will let it, then it starts to bring you down and in the end it's still you who will suffer and not them (this is based on his experience) this makes me think that whatever you want in life you need to go for it whatever happens whatever are the criticisms. That whatever happens in the past is in the past and that i should not make it ruin my future as he said. these things i came up to conclude that i most blame others for what happens to me that in the first place i am responsible of my own actions. i know i'm depressed but i need to resolve this! as he said. WAKE UP! WAKE UP SHIELA! you're not just the one with all the problems in the world many are those worst than yours, don't make excuses for yourself WAKE UP! don't let fear of being judge get in the way, maybe you think of it because your somewhat a judgmental person yourself and you sometimes made stupid mistakes but that doesn't mean your a criminal.

this is mind over matter. i need to keep sane and be alive, i need to make resolutions and live.

Monday, March 9, 2009

i feel down

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today is sunday, march 8, 2009 supposed to be church day but as usual never been to church for maybe months and there's this 2 celebrations: benneth's 26th birthday and roylyn's baby shower. obviously i'm invited. i don't feel like going there but out of friendship and respect i went there, but almost the whole day i feel down and bored. being there still doesn't wash away my boredom.

much more when i went home... added to my boredom?! irritation and disgust (you know who you are... xoxo... LOL mga taw nga gibitok so suffocating) even when they're gone these negative feelings still remains... duh! alimuot. samok ang balay. labad labad labad and boring boring boring. i hate feeling this way it's soooo laay and mingaw kaau. i'm bored. i want someone or something to cheer me up! huhuhu.. Have u noticed my blog puro negative og sayings to cheer me up. Hopefully next time nindot napud unta ako ibutang dri oi.... Hopefully.