Decisions

Sometimes we can make rush decisions without even thinking what could later on be the effect and outcome, even the small decisions we make in our daily lives could make changes little by little till it gets bigger. I say this in accordance to what I experienced awhile ago when I was invited to have a dinner in my close friend's house since she just moved to a new apartment. Well, I realized that I should have turned down her (ka live-in)partner's invite when he asked me to just go with him riding his motorcycle to Caryl's house instead of his (ka live-in)my close friend ~ since she's tired of going back and fort with him riding his motorcycle running errands. We'll it came to my mind right away not go since It seems and sounded not proper to me ~ well, I don't have anything against the person but I'm just trying to protect future happenings not only that I protect my family(my husband) but for myself as well, but I came to realized that almost all the time when in situations like this I get myself caught unguarded of the decisions I make due to my excitement and my outgoing persona that's why I can affirm to the invite. Now when I relate to my husband all the things happened awhile ago to the activity that I attended, I feel so guilty the part when I relate to him that I went riding with my close friend's partner(ka live-in) to go to Caryl's house and realized that this is not what he wanted, that this is not what I wanted and this is not what we expected to happen. I always found myself guilty after when I already decided and when the situation already happened. Every time when I get home from somewhere when me and some friends have this little socialization, I always remind myself that next time in some little or big gatherings I should be more extra careful with my decision making and actions in dealing each person in the circle of friends. I need to know more of myself and I need to know more things that could distract me, or be an exchange to this kind of situation without sabotaging my happiness, I really need to find this out deep within me. So help me God!